1 week has gone

So today is friday again
last week.we argued.then he still sms me.ask me wanna how.
but that day he already met a girl...!!why!!!??!!
saturday the girl get this number.
he gave.sunday sms whole day.then night dah together.
but he still finding me and i did miss him too.
he dint even let me know.
today is the 8th day.
but i cried for him since last friday.7 days.
i haven't cry today.
aikx.but after chat with carmen and saw loke's blog.
feel like crying again.
maybe carmen is correct.
i shouldn't be stupid anymore.
but i really cant put down suddenly.
i cant.really cant.
SORRY to myself.
i cutted my hand on tuesday.
cause that time i only know that he have new gf already.
i cant accept the fact.
cause i do love him but not much as last time.i know.
the girl is only 16 years old la please.
i already 17years old.he already older than me 10 years.
i let you go last time.cause i want you to get a girl that really can marry with you.
but why you do that??if the girl is 20++..i will accept i think.BUT all is too fast!!
but this new gf is only 16.he still bluff that girl he is only 20!what the hell!enough please.
i cry for him in the pass 7 days.
cry till 4/5am everyday.
he know.and i am on the phone with him too.but he dint say anything.just ask me to sleep.dun cry.bla.i only need your care..!why is that so hard to get?
everyone said we are sweet last time.but why you can change so suddenly.WHY?!?!?it's HURT!
i really cant accept the fact!i cant.
i get to know all his things by my friend.he did that to me.but why dont he tell me.
still chat with me.sms with me.why?!
why you must treat me like that
this three days.
i only eat a bowl of noodle to tahan the whole day.the 60sen noodle,you can think how big is the noodle.
i have marching.i have to stay under the sun.i have to run here.run there.
but i just ate a bowl of noodle.
i dint even eat when i at home.
i just stay inside my room.and cry.
WHY am i STUPID!?!?

3/05/2010 08:11:00 PM ·